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im ok.

If you haven’t gathered from my very depressing posts, 2019 was a bad year for me. As far as I can remember, I’ve never had a year as bad as 2019. There was so much stress, heartbreak, and long nights that a lot of it is honestly a blur. I thought about listing what happened,…

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One Person Battle

Everyone talks, but they never do.“I’ll help you” but you don’t.“I’ll do it” but I do.“I’m here for you” but you’re not. We are alone in this war we call life.No one can help us move forward but ourselves.We all say we will help,But our battles aren’t fought with armies. It’s a one person battle…

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UPDATE

It is almost 5 am while I’m writing this so I am going to make this short. I’m just here to talk about what my plans are for the future. Ever since I started blogging, I had a sensation to do more. I love writing, but there’s just something missing when blogging. I feel like…

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im too delicate.

I’m torn apartLike a sheet of paper.Ripped to shredsAs I try gluing the pieces back together. “I’m proud of you” my parents say,But how can they be proud?I’m weaker than paper,But built from something stronger than wood. It’s like I am the next graded testWaiting for the shredder’s next appearance.I’m just waiting for that student,The…

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im a lover.

They all tell me I don’t need anyone to be happy, but loneliness tears me down so what other choice do I have? I need a shoulder to cry on. I need someone I know I can call at 2 am. I need someone that can make me smile by just a touch. I need…

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im a scared puppet.

Have you ever sat back, and looked at how successful everyone around you is? Everyone is going for something, but here you are letting everything else guide you. Your anxiety and everyone else’s needs consume you. You push all of your needs aside because someone needs something. Or maybe your mom doesn’t feel like taking…

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